I have always wanted all my T’s crossed and my I’s dotted.. no dangling strings or unresolved issues.

My natural way is to press until everything at least gives the appearance of being ok.

I can’t stand if something is left not finished.

Well… now that I have had some time to look at this tendency of mine.

I have decided that sometimes, every now and then, It is ok to just let something be.

Sometimes, things really do work themselves out without any interference from us.

I did not want to go back to work.

I wanted to sit down.

However,, due to my recent hospital stay.. heart thing ya know.

I found myself  not having a choice.. have to pay for the bills and the insurance….

Now though… I find that I am in better shape every day, the exercise and activity is the best thing for me… I feel stronger with each passing moment I am moving….

Sometimes the choices we make seem like accidents… but hmmmm I wonder.

The fact that there have been numerous predictions from some very wise people that “something” will happen to change our world this year

That we are having the strangest weather patterns in our history

That the sky ‘looks’ different

That there is something shifting in our minds and hearts as if we are preparing for something

I have never, in my life, listened to or believed any of the doomsday predictions in this past… it is not like me…. However,,, I DO feel that something is coming, something is about to take place in our world and it will never be the same after.

I feel it in every fiber of my being.

The Ego must die for spiritual growth and transformation of the ultimate kind.

Doesn’t mean you don’t have an ego… just means it doesn’t control you anymore.

this will be a hard one…..

What we believe may be the most important factor in what works for us when we are choosing treatment options or courses of action for disease.

There was an experiment done.. and no I don’t remember who it was that did it.

I saw it on CBS Sunday morning.. one of my favorite programs.

BUT they took some patients (who of course agreed that they might or might not get surgery) and some of them got knee reconstruction surgery and some of them,,, they just opened up and closed back telling them they got the surgery.

They improved equally.

They also did trials with anti-depressants and placebo pills and found both to be equally effective.

What we believe directly impacts what our body does.

Now how do we get our minds to believe what we want them to so that we can avoid the most destructive forms of treatment like chemo or open heart surgery… well that is the question.

Imagine that thing you really want.

See it, believe it.

The “act as if” it is already true.

There is ridiculous unrest in the Middle East

Gas will be $5 a gallon shortly

We are set to get hit with another round of foreclosures

Unemployment is still sky high

The Stock Market is stupid

and if you are putting a single penny of your money in it then you are too

and the fact that lots of our corporations and politicians and everyone on the face of the earth have their futures tied to it makes them stupid too

We are all stupid for putting our money and faith in something that isn’t even real

I have a very strong suspicion that the Mayans were right but I think it may all be tied to the final fall of the almighty stock market and everything connected to it

If we remember that God is the one who created our final home then we will know with rock solid certainty that is must be beautiful and wonderful beyond our ability to grasp.

For me, that takes a little bit of fear out of the prospect of moving on from here to there.

Nothing is certain.

Nothing stays exactly the same.

This is a crazy life.

Up and down and all around.

Makes you wonder what God was thinking.

Have never had to choose between food and medicine

Have never gotten a hospital bill for $30,000 that they can’t pay

Have never been told to go home and bring back some money by a doctor

Have never been told they will get a less effective test because the right one is too expensive

Have never been refused insurance because they had a pre-existing condition

Have never had there insurance canceled because they got too sick

Who in the hell is We???